i’ve been doing a lot of research into my various mental diagnoses and i’ve discovered so much of myself in the things i’ve found. it turns out that my quirks are actually part of my various ailments, little things that i thought were just me – well they are still me but they aren’t myContinue reading “under the umbrella”
autism most of the time is something that doesn’t really affect my daily life in a crippling way, it just changes how i act/react to things in my day-to-day life vs how a neurotypical might. it isn’t even something i would wish away if i had the option to wish away one of my manyContinue reading “thoughts vs words”
people tell me it’s impossible not to see color and for a while, i thought maybe it was my autism that made it so i don’t see color – by color i’m talking about skin color. for context i was raised with my cousin who is half-black, my aunt is white and raised him asContinue reading “seeing color”
i noticed you liked [x] thing and now when i see anything related to it i want to message you about it you told me you really liked [x] movie and [x] actor in the movie, now i file away information about those topics to tell you later you’re learning how to do [x] andContinue reading “different ways i say: i love you [part two]”
i often get told by loved ones that they love to hear me talk or they will always listen to me. it’s meant to encourage me to talk more to them since i’m not a talkative person, i’m quiet. more often than not i keep my thoughts to myself, even if things are bothering me.Continue reading “why i’m quiet”
i wanna be able to elegantly write about how i feel lonely and struggle to make friends, to socialize and act like neuro-typical people or understand them and how they think. but i can’t seem to put it down properly, so it just stays inside me – rotting.